Bit My Tongue!

There are some lessons I need to learn over and over before they "stick". One of these lessons is biting my tongue when I'm tempted to just say what's on my mind or the first thought that pops into my head. I'm learning that just because it pops into my head, doesn't mean it needs to come out of my mouth. I don't think I was born with a natural filter that evaluates these thoughts. :)

Although I still have a hard time with filtering my thoughts, I have seen some improvements lately. Because I know this is an area of weakness for me, I am conscious of the progress I am making. I had an opportunity this week to reflect on that.

Awhile back, I made a commitment to get rid of all the 'negative talk' both in my head and what left my lips. It has improved, but I can still get sucked in to negative conversations once in awhile. I was at a meeting where people were complaining about their spouses. I think it's easy to fall into the typical stereotypical images that our society portrays as it pertains to our roles in our marriages or just as men and women. I noticed that this group of people was no different. Normally, I would nod and agree and maybe be involved with the conversation. What surprised me was that it was EASY for me NOT to get into the conversation. I was not even tempted. It was easy to bite my tongue after many months of practice. The 'negative talk' has diminished over the years. I am now focusing on being a more positive person.

It was refreshing to realize that I CAN change! I've learned that your thoughts really do shape your character. What do your thoughts portray to people? Think about that for a minute....Because what you are thinking, will become your character.

Change

Change. I don't like it. However, it seems that's what keeps me going on this roller coaster called life.

Some of our dear friends just moved out of state.

We found out about 2 weeks before the move, that they would be relocating. The news was certainly a shock, that was also mixed with "selfish sadness" as I like to call it. I'm sad because they have had such an impact on our lives and I am sad for myself and my family that we will be losing the physical closeness of this part of our family. They have been there for us for the past 4 and half years through some pretty rough spots....cancer, kids, surgeries, marriage problems, family struggles, and much more. They have also been here for some really fun times too!

God has a plan. His ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. Though sad, I've been able to reflect back on just how much I've seen God's fingerprint on all they have brought to our lives. They have changed my life for the better. I've had to go through (and am still going through) some pretty difficult transformations with their help, love, and support. It's amazing to me to see just how awesome His plan has been and to be forever grateful for the time we've had together these past 4 1/2 years.

I've realized that change is inevitable. Nothing stays the same. It can be a catalyst to grow. It gets me out of my comfort zone and forces me to rely solely on God and trust in Him. I may not like the journey sometimes, but I can hold on tight, trust in Him, and enjoy the ride!